Why does my mind go blank when I've got tons to say?

I've had another lesson on blogging and Internet marketing from Matt Duggan and I think I need to start my relationship with being a blogger at the beginning. I've got tones to say but when I sit in front of a blank new post my mind goes blank. There is so much I can talk about because there are tons of examples of women and girls being reduced to a sexist invisible caricature, or I can blog about my Power Circles or my Counselling, or the rise in mother-daughter relationship counselling, or my journey to creating a life on my terms post children. But what I need to talk about some more is why my mind go blank when I'm sitting in from of a blank new blog? I need to talk about this in order to break through the fear of getting it wrong. I know, it doesn't make sense. What could I possibly get wrong? In part this fear comes from the narrow role and sphere of possibility that the women in my family were expected to live within. But that isn't all. My mind goes blank because I live in a culture that silences girls and women.

I know that I'm not the only women whose mind goes blank whenever she is confronted with a chance to speak her mind. We are surrounded by an entire language that teaches us to keep quiet, worry more about what other people think than what we think, don't upset anyone, and definitely don't become too visible on your own terms. As all my Power Circle women know, the journey to living your life on your own terms is a journey in recognising this language and challenging message by message until you create your own language that gives you complete entitlement to be and say who you are.

The real truth about my fear of getting it wrong is that by not speaking, not living my life on my terms, not claiming my voice and thoughts, I will be getting it wrong. The fear of getting it wrong is just the way the silencing of women has manifested in me. We all have our own fears that the language that silences women locks in on and creates a false truth in our minds. But if we look closely at our fears it actually evaporates in a puff of smoke because it isn't telling us the truth. The fear actually hides what we must do in order to live our lives to the full. So here goes, to kill my fear of getting it wrong, I'm going to blog anyway!